I Used To Be. I Used To Have

Today's topic is about what I was like the previous years , what I've had and what I've learned from it.



I used to be a really bad friend, I copied homework from my best friend, lets call her Jane.

Everyday, I went to school early just to get my homework "done", when I was in primary 5. It was a month before when I started copying her work. One month later, it was the P5 camp. During the last day of the camp, she suddenly didn't want to talk to me and I didn't know the reason why.

So on that day, I went home,crying. My mother fetched me from school and I decided to put up an act. We walked to a foodcourt nearby.I think that my mother sensed that something wasn't right with me and asked me if anything has happened to me. I couldn't take it anymore, tears were welling up in my eyes, I cried. I told my mother about the Jane thing and she was like okay okay, don't cry. She patted my back and comforted me, I felt so embarrassed as I was in public. I was really good to that girl except that copying think that makes me a bad friend...

The lesson I learned , never believe those who are putting on an angel's face, the devil was once an angel.

Some Things Change

Hey readers, I just posted a review and now I'm gonna tell you about what just happened to me.

Some things come and go, now I don't know what forever is. Does forever even exist? Can I still trust people? I don't know honestly. After so many things happened to me, I don't know if I can still trust people. 

After so many setbacks and betrayals, I finally learned. I trust people but I don't trust them 100%. The first time I felt betrayed was when I trusted that person so much as if they were my family, but right now, I feel so hurt and deep down my heart? I still can't believe that she left. Is it because of my attitude? It is because of my appearance? Am I really that ugly or are you just purely judgemental ? 

Dear stranger or ex friend, if you are reading this right now, I just want to tell you that karma does exist. What goes around comes around. You betray me today, someone will betray you someday. I will get over it soon.

-Tae 

My Mother (Part 1)

Year 1994

My mother and my aunt was once treated like a slave. She dropped out of school at 15 years old to support her family to provide for her sick mother and a sick elder brother. Her salary was less than $1000.

Her kind cousin brother took her in but, his wife showed her attitude. She shared a room with her sister , nieces and nephews.

As she was working night shift, she didn't sleep well in the day as the children were far too noisy.

She receives lots and lots of sarcasm from her cousin sister in law. She didn't dare to eat much in he house either. After a few months, she and my mother and my aunt decided to move out. They rented a room together and the monthly rental was $500.


My aunt was the one who sacrifice the most, said my mother. She dropped out the school even earlier. She dropped out in primary school.

The Whole Of My Primary School Life

In Primary 1....

I was a short and plump girl. I didn't have much friends and I didn't know why. I remembered being called up by the teacher every time.

In Primary 2........

I was too naive

There was this girl "C"(the same girl mentioned in my first post)who was quite close to me. Then one day,she and "K", ganged up and bullied me. The whole level didn't talk to me and I didn't have ANY friends. I felt so depressed. I was only 8.

In Primary 3......

I was a loner.

I had started to built a " defence wall". I was wary of anyone who tried to come near me and I doubt everyone.Although I was always alone, this time I didn't felt lonely.

In Primary 4....

I was a mischievious girl.

I started to try and trust people. I gained a few friends and eventually, they left . " C " finally left from my life. She went to other school.

In Primary 5....

I was a quiet and well behaved girl. I was chosen as class chairperson. I felt so proud. Nothing bad happened this year.

In Primary 6....

I was chosen as class chairperson yet again. My PSLE is about to come and I' m working on it!

You can see how my personality changed and how I felt in primary school. This is gonna be the last year I'm going to be in primary school and I promise I would really miss Primary 6!